I walk down the stairs. I feel happy after talking to Jacob. Anxious for Wednesday to come. Cody, Nick, and Stef are downstairs talking. I sit on my favorite bar stool. So many mixed feelings. Feelings I’ve never felt before. I spin in the stool, my mind on one thing, one person. Jacob. His red hair, his masculine body, his natural beauty. I miss him. I haven’t seen him since Thursday. I want to see him. I want to hold him and never let go!
I put my head in my hands. So many noises. The radio blaring heavy metal, Cody explaining something, and mom upstairs yelling at my dog. My mind drifts away. I close my eyes, but I still see him. I miss him so much. I still feel faint from earlier when Cody and I got in a fight. I lift my head up and see the mark on his neck where I bit him. He gets up to turn up the radio, and I see the long scratch on the back of his neck where I dug my nails into him. I look down, and see all the cuts and bruises on my hands and arms from him. It was a fair fight.
My wolf senses are telling me there will be a full moon tonight. I stretch and yawn. If I am to roam, I’ll need sleep. I get up and walk to the black beanbag wolf and I had used earlier during one of our blue moon dates. I curl up into a ball and slide easily into a troubled sleep. I dream that I am running through a forest. Searching. I am myself, my natural being. I am a wolf.
I look around to see where I am. Somewhere familiar, I know, but I can’t place it. I’m running nonstop. Then up ahead, I see something. Suddenly someone is calling my name. Terrible screams of horror fill the air. It’s Jacob. He’s scared. Someone’s hurting him. I run faster, growling. The scene up ahead becomes visible. I don’t believe what I see, but I keep running towards it. I stop when I’m at the scene. It’s Jacob and Wolf. I’m in shock. Torn between the two people I love most. Wolf is growling at Jacob, trapping him in a corner. Jacob has blood dripping from claw marks on his arm. I don’t know what to do. I howl, and they look at me as if both of them just woke up from a dream. Wolf sees the confusion in my eyes and walks towards me. When he gets to me, he licks my nose. I howl again and he howls back, our way of saying hello. I look into his fierce eyes. My eyes fill with tears. He understands. He turns toward Jacob, gives one last defeated growl and walks away. I’m afraid he’ll be back for him later. I walk towards Jacob. He’s shaking all over. I turn human again. I hold him close, whispering “It’s ok. Shh. I’m here love.” He starts to cry. Slowly he cries himself to sleep. I watch him sleep…
I’m woken up by a soft voice whispering in my ear. It’s Nick. He and Cody have to leave. My legs are stiff. When I stand up, my knees buckle under me. Nick catches me before I hit the ground. He just laughs at my confused look when I’m standing on my own. I let out a soft laugh, a rarity that only my true friends see. I follow them upstairs. Hugs are shared, and goodbyes are said. Nothing to worry about. I’ll see them tomorrow.

To Be Continued...